the weekend i just had was a blast. it was not because i attended parties and all that stuff. it was because i spent it with my girlfriends touring the island of bohol. by the way, pictures might be uploaded some time next week. i was really able to think about a lot of things. lately, all i've been doing is think. i haven't been able to write anything other than my blogs lately. hmmm... i'm also excited for my upcoming vl from cvg. although it will only be for two days (excluding my rest day), im still looking forward to it. at least i can do a loy of things on weekdays without worrying about lack of sleep. there's also this cvg outing in cebu beach club that i am also looking forward to. hahaha... i love summers!!! hopefully our plan of going to bantayan will also push through. right now, i need all the break i can get, if only for a few days.

i can't believe i haven't written anything for more than a month now.  it's just that things have beenat a standstill the past few week. well, you can't help it. it's so not fair all the things that have been happening at work these days have been nothing but depressing. it's just so sad hearing about those people who have been forced to resign. i was not one of those people. at least, not yet. maybe in a couple of days i will be. but then, what will happen if i get terminated? would i be depressed as well? or would i be relieved instead? i wish there was something i could do to change things, you know, like turn the time back to when people were happy working for cvg and the demands weren't so impossible at all. right now, things seem to look so dark and gloomy at work. the once familiar faces were gone. a lot of familiar faces were gone. i'm so depressed and i feel so sad for all those people.

i don't know how i feel. it's like im suddenly caught at a crossroads. if i go to one direction, my life is gonna change and im not sure if im going to like the changes. on the other hand, if i also head towards the other direction, my life is going to stay the same for such a long time and im also not so sure that i'd be happy staying this way. i need change. i want change. but im scared this time. i used to be so fearless but i just don't know why now everything is so different from how i used to be. i feel like if i make a mistake with which road im going to choose, i may never have the chance to correct it anymore. i just don't know which is the right thing to do right now. i also don't know which thing is going to make me happy. all i know is that i wasn't able to sleep the whole day because these thoughts have been nagging me all day. im tired and i need sleep but my mind just won't stop thinking.

1. If you want to understand a person, do not listen
to what he says to you. Instead listen to what he
does not say. Learn to read in between lines and
observe the way he says things.

2. The true value of a person is tested during the
darkest times of his life.

3. Life is like a game. Sometimes we miss and get
hurt. But life doesn't end where our heartaches
begin. It only ends when we give up and stop
believing.

4. When you keep putting off things for later, it wil
soon be too late to do something about it. So if you
want to express your feelings, do it now before you
lose the chance.

5. Each one of us is unique. We may find and
meet people who are a lot like us but they will
never be us.

6. Always be the best version of yourself and never
settle for a second rate imitation of someone you
aspire to be.

7. Know all your strengths and use them in a way
that will be beneficial to you.

8. Don't be affected by the people who ridicule the
choices you make.

9. Stand up for your decisions and try your best
not to regret whatever decision you have chosen.

10. You can never make your dreams happen if
you don't take chances.

11. You will always have all the time in the world to
travel another raod, and still another.

12. Make mistakes and make sure you learn
something from every journey you take.

13.Take time to be alone every now and then.

14. Be honest with yourself. If you love someone,
say it. It doesn't matter if the person doesn't feel
the same way. Surprisingly, unrequited love is
easier to live with than unsolicited love.

15. Laugh and enjoy your life. When you're old and
you can't do the things you want to anymore, you
will only have your memories of all your happy
moments to get you through.

16. Bask in how beautiful nature can be.
Remember that you are a part of it and you are just
as beautiful.

17. Appreciate everything that you have, especially
the little things.

18. Never hesitate to help those less fortunate than
you. It doesn't necessarily have to be financial.
Sometimes, the mere fact that you don't leave their
side when they are in need is so much more of a
help than money can be.

19. Love is a decision. Love is never easy that's
why it should never be based on feelings alone.

20. Love people as if it were their last day on earth
because really, you'll never know if it is actually
going to be their last day on earth.

21. We can never change reality, but we can
change the way we look at it.

22. Enjoy the present, what you have now. It's
today that really matters. Yesterday can't hurt you
anymore and Tomorrow is still just an illusion.

23.Appreciate verything you have, you will never
know when these things will be taken away.

24. I believe that there is a whole new world hidden
in the heart of each and every person. It is up to us
to work out a way in discovering it and enjoying the
marvels of their secret oceans and hidden
mountains.

25. You don't owe it to time when you eventually
get over someone. You owe it to the people who
were with you and helped you get through those
lonely days.

26. There is nothing in this world more beautiful
than the sunset.

27. If we just look at things appreciatively,
everything around us is actually a part of a
conspiracy that means to make our lives beautiful.

28. Self sacrifice is not love. It's natural for us to
want to protect the ones we love. But that's not
love. Open them up to the world, allow them to get
hurt and give it to them to learn from experience.